I want to hate you, but I can't.

You'll never see the tears I cry. I see my dreams all die.It's so quiet here but you scream into my head. When you told me you leave, I feel like I couldn't breath. You broked my heart but you can't imagine how much it hurts. Someone told me you kissed her? Why did you do that? I wish I could hate you, but it's too difficult. You hurt me, but I love you .. I don't understand why I am so stupid. My house no longer feels like home. When I see you now, you're not alone. I should've known better, now it hurts much more. You saw me laughing, but it's not because I am happy without you. It's because I didn't want to cry ..